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[20 Apr 2008|04:27pm] |
I hate the fact that summer is fast approaching. Thank god for the summer classes I am taking that will save my GPA...I had a little too much fun my first year of college and I don't know what would happen to me if I didn't have the opportunity to bring my grades up over the summer and avoid academic suspension. Thank you, summer courses, I adore you.
Getting my period right about now would be fantastic....and so would leaving Ted's house. I like drinking and stuff but honestly...I hate staying here until the evening. I like to wake up from being drunk and be able to take a shower and chill. That isn't possible here.
The weather has been beautiful the last couple of days but today it's rainy. Mallory is on duty tonight and I'm hoping to avoid mini-intervention number two. I've found that living in a communal place makes it damn hard to be sneaky and it's even harder to lie to a line of blue and brown eyes and soft hands. It's even harder because I can't talk about it with anyone here...since my roomie is sometimes a condescending bitch and Cari is always busy...and the people I would normally go to talk to are the ones that I want to talk about. If Kelly and Kandece would just mind their own business, I wouldn't have to worry about knocks on the door at 10:30 pm and being pulled into Mama's room for three hours and cry about Breaylin, who is dead and gone and not coming back.
I really just want to go take a shower and maybe talk to Mallory, because if I talk to her beforehand it's less likely that I'll get caught, and there's a huge likelihood that I will get caught either way because everyone knows me and everyone knows what's up. Unfortunately, everyone also knows what to do about it, which makes my blood boil because things were easier in high school, when it was just Jean. But now it's Mal and McCrea and Bubba and Kate and Kandece and Feeko and Justine and Kelly and Sean and Ashley and Ted and Nate and Regina and Glen....so many people to get around and 11 of those people live in my building so it's hard to maneuver myself around them.
I feel disgusting and I need to shower and I hate waking up to Ashley giving Sean a blowjob next to me. I also hate when I have things in Ted's room and I walk in and they are naked. One day I'm going to have my boy splooge in her pillowcase and it's going to be fantastic.
Ryan and Jean broke up. He's upset. I haven't talked to her. I don't know how I feel about it.....I had just gotten used to the idea that they might work out. I guess I don't have to worry about that anymore. Relationships come and go I guess and I knew it would end this way. I'm actually surprised it lasted for that long, kudos to them. But now it's going to be awkward at birthdays and things like that where they're both invited. I'll deal. Since college I've become a pro at dealing with awkward situations....ie last Wednesday and probably tonight. Great.
But going back to my currently worry, I just can't lie to those three.
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[11 Jan 2008|04:07am] |
I'm not sure if I'll miss Philly or not.
I will miss:
my mom
my dog
alex, dina, chelsea
downtown
easily accesible malls
no homework
no classes
no million stairs to climb
I will not miss:
my screaming brother
my dad
breathing in exhaust
I can't wait:
to wake up with regina in the room
to wake up to snow and the mountains and the susquehanna
for the two classes i have with regina
the one class we have with ted
to see/pounce on: mallory, bubba, mama and kate bobbie
for the first time someone tells me it's quiet hours
to pass the fuck out on mallorys floor again
to hang out in kandeces room without claire
rugby rugby rugby rugby rugby
leaving notes on whiteboards again
dinner @ 5, of course
ted freakin amazing backrubs
getting in trouble at hall council
for alex to meet everyone on my birthday weekend
for emily and tom to come up to visit
american idol with the most amazing kids: regina, mallory and kandece
for all the crazy adventures that will happen
I can definitely do without:
world literature...that syllabus is ridiculous
having to unpack
taking a bus there
the fact that lindsey isn't here this semester
the fact that emily isn't here this semester
trying to go to bed early
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[08 Jan 2008|03:16am] |
I go back to school in 5 days.
Still no idea how the fuck I'm getting there.
Or how I'm taking all of my shit with me.
The parentals said they'd give me a ride to Stroudsburg, where my roomie lives, if her parents will take me up with Regina. Sure hope that works out.
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[31 Dec 2007|09:18pm] |
2007 ate so much dick. I'm happy to be in college and I have wonderful, beautiful people in my life nowdays...and I got rid of the ones who really don't matter that much.
When you live with someone, you see the real them morning, noon and night. When you're in high school, you see what people are like during the day....you don't know what it's like to sleep in the bed underneath someone and wake up in the morning, or fall asleep in bed with someone and wake up next to them. I'm not even talking about boyfriends...I mean do you know how many times I've passed out in a bed with one of my friends, woke up in the middle of the night and been like 'Aw, Kate Bobbie!' and just gone back to sleep? Sooo many times. I know what all my friends are like first thing in the morning, and I like that. You don't see that side of people in high school as much as you do in college.
I'm realizing that the people I didn't spend time with in high school I probably SHOULD have and the people I did spend time with in high school I probably could have done without. You get so much closer to people in college so much faster. Graduating was great, I really needed out of high school as quickly as possible. I'm so much more involved in college and I have a lot of friends who are a lot older than me who have been glad to show me what college is all about.
I fucked up hardcore in 2007 in a lot of ways. I did a lot of drugs that were unecessary. I've drank so much that I puked for 2 days. I've made out and had sex with way too many guys. I broke the law and most of the rules of my dorm. I put people in really tough situations...situations in which I could have...no, SHOULD have gotten in a lot of trouble for, but people saved me a million times. I passed out in the hallways of 3-Long and went joy riding at 3:00 AM with Ted and Regina going 90 MPH in empty towns on foggy roads. I missed homework assignments, I skipped classes and just overall did some pretty stupid shit. I'm cleaning up for next year though.
Bring on 2008.
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| 19 days until central pa, and my parents love that i play rugby |
[26 Dec 2007|06:46am] |
Christmas Presents:
rugby ball.
rugby hat.
rugby kicking tee.
rugby shirt.
hollister perfume.
25 dollar Starbucks gift card.
fuzzy socks from grandmom.
pink fleece jawnie from grandmom.
pink fleece jawnie from grandmom.
2008 schedule jawnie from my aunt.
and 300 dollars cash to spend as I feel like it.
I like Jim.
We hung out the other night.
He kissed me.
I kissed him back.
We kissed all night.
I really like Jim. A lot.
I liked him before Kate did, and they've been over for a while, and Jim and I would be perfect.
I'm going to his New Years Eve party.
I'm kissing him at midnight.
Life is great minus the not being in central PA part.
I'm sending out 4 letters today. A Christmas card for my wonderfully amazing roomie, Regina. And one for the fabulous RA of 3-Short, Mama. Also, a letter for Bubba and a letter for Mama. Letters for Mallory and another for Mama will be sent out tomorrow.
I have no idea how I'm getting back to Lock Haven after break hahahaha. Whatever, I'll get there. <3
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| 27 days until lock haven! |
[19 Dec 2007|07:16pm] |
OMG I HATE PHILADELPHIA! I NEED TO GO HOME TO CENTRAL PA!
27 days and counting, baby!!
Missing Mallory, Bubba, Mama, Regina, Ted, Emily and everyone else really sucks. At least Kate and Kandece live 20 minutes away.
I hate that I'll listen to bands that remind me of other people because I miss them. Wow, I'm a dork.
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[27 Jul 2007|06:38pm] |
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I'm not pregnant!
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[23 Jul 2007|08:55pm] |
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I have slight cramps and I'm never home. I saw an old substitute I used to have in middle school on the bus, his name was Mr. Tenor and he told stories.
I'm on the phone with Charles and I miss West Virginia. I go out a lot, I drink a lot, I have a lot of fun and I kiss a lot of boys without commitments because I'm waiting for college to think about relationships that might actually last.
"High Tide Heels"...HAHAHAHA. Jean and I are on good terms again, finally, I missed her a lot. I miss softball, a lot. I do drills as often as possible.
I don't have too much to say, this time next month I'll be all moved in to my dorm at Lock Haven. I am sooo excited.
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| fhjdhsiughrsui |
[17 Jun 2007|10:33pm] |
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I'm graduating tomorrow and part of me wants to but part of me doesn't. I
m not so sure I'm ready to say goodbye to CAPA just yet, but I guess I'll have to be, won't I? Shit.
Goodbye, CAPA.
Hello, Lock Haven University.
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[08 Feb 2007|10:44pm] |
This time last year I was so pathetic, how gross.
I love:
that I have softball practice tomorrow
Jean
the fact that I have a starbucks date with lovely people tomorrow
my 1 year is next week
I'm getting a tattoo next week
my new play topic
my senior exit topic
being in Ms. Litmans class
being accepted to college
when Ms. Reissman plays the shit out of me and I can laugh about it with her
that Ms. Reissman approves of my boy-toy-thang [yes, thang]
the thought of leaving CAPA soon
I hate:
Mr. Hodgman [prick? yes.]
the senior exit project itself
the coldness outside
the fact that I need 35 notecards and I'm only on 19, hahahaha
the fact that my scene made Ms. Pellegrino cry, jesus christ
the thought of leaving CAPA soon
I miss:
MC and spending mass amounts of time with her
softball season
Ms. Garay, hahahaha
last years seniors
I still can't use a tampon, PATHETIC hahahahaha. It's just weird having a piece of cotton in your vagina, I don't care what anyone says, I really think it can get stuck inside of you and then what?? YOU DIE. I don't want to die, but I guess I'd rather risk death than feel like I'm wearing a diaper. Hello, tampon-world.
I feel very happy right now. Very happy but also very tired. So I have to finish these notecards so I can go to sleep!
I just want to hug all of the writers and I hope Darius won Mr. CAPA. What a nice butt he has!!!!
I also really missed Mia and Sophie today.
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| wow new years eve |
[01 Jan 2007|10:57pm] |
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We sinned. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA. Aw, shit man haha.
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| whatev |
[27 Dec 2006|10:53pm] |
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Life would be so much easier if I hadn't picked a best friend with such a FREAKISH past.
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[14 Dec 2006|05:34pm] |
1. I do not like Ms. Young
2. I have an enormous amount of shoulder pain
3. I feel sooooo incredibly gross
4. There are not enough hours in the day to complete allllllllll of my damn work
5. My college applications are out, finally
6. I hate applications
7. Kaitlin suggested I go to the hospital
8. I miss people
9. I haven't slept since last Saturday
10. I had a nervous breakdown during 8th period
11. omg i hate everything
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| sick again |
[30 Nov 2006|09:04pm] |
Obviously, I have absolutely no immune system.
Shit, I feel sick.
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[28 Nov 2006|09:57pm] |
I can be finished all of my homework and be showered by 12:00 AM if I keep at this pace!!!
I'm obviously amazing.
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[21 Nov 2006|04:05pm] |
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Okay I feel better now and I'm not getting my wisdom teeth yanked out of my face yet so I'm fairly happy and on honor roll.
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| i am happy. |
[15 Nov 2006|09:28pm] |
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my 9 month mark is tomorrow.
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[03 Nov 2006|09:19pm] |
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Make me go back to softball practice. Thanks.
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